Definitely too much on my mind.
SPRING FEVER IS REAL, PEOPLE.
I know 7 people that got engaged over spring break. SEVEN.
You remember what happens in Bambi...well, these deers, skunks and rabbits aren't alone--humans are just as bad. Not that it's bad to be in love, but I mean, it's not happening to me, so I guess I'm a little bitter.
Not bitter...but jealous. Yes, jealousy is a good word.
Speaking of twitterpation, one of my best friends, Sherie Anne Millward is getting married in less than a month!
I have other friends that are becoming more serious with their boyfriends and are getting the "feelings" you get that come with the knowledge that you may be getting married soon---CRAZAY. I don't think I'm mad, I'm just realizing that this isn't just daydreaming anymore. I can't say, "won't it be crazy when the first one of us gets married?" to my friends anymore. It's already happened.
It is happening now.
I think the hardest part for me is that they're finding their new best friends, and I know I'm not being demoted, but they now have someone that they would rather spend time with. I mean, if I had a boy who adored me I would so much rather spend my time with him. Hands down.
Anyway, enough about my patheticness...
Lately I've been thinking a lot about the person that I want to be.
I put a lot of pressure on myself to be perfect--wait, that might be a little bit of a lie because i'm the LAZIEST person I know. And, that's what I've come to realize--I'm not being the best I can be. I can HELP a lot more. I can DO a lot more. I can BE a lot more.
I don't know where I'd be about pinterest. I found this gem while searching through the thousands of wonderful pins. "Be the type of person you want to meet."
That really struck a chord with me for some reason.
I've been thinking about the type of people I want to meet (friends, boyfriends, anyone).
I want to meet people who are exciting.
People who have a lot to offer.
People who are ambitious.
People who aren't afraid to speak their minds.
People who wear their beliefs on their sleeves.
People who know who they are.
People who accomplish things.
People who are unique.
People who have talent and use those abilities to help others.
People who get out and do things.
People who are kind.
People who are generous.
People who serve others.
People who are comfortable in any situation.
People who can laugh.
People who know the importance of families and friends.
People who know that everything has a place.
People who surround themselves with nothing but positivity.
People who are optimistic.
People who are smart.
....as you can see, I have a lot to work on. I think I'm well on my way, but there are always things to get better at. Good, Better, Best. That's the goal.
I know that striving to have all of these things will help me find people who want the same in their lives. Hopefully one of those people is my future husband and best friend. Maybe I already know him, but we both have growing to do. Maybe it will be together. Maybe it won't. Maybe I have no idea who he is. Wherever he is, I hope he is working to become the man he wants to be. Most importantly, I hope both of us never stop working to be the people God KNOWS we can be.
wow. I'm rather insightful at 2:30 in the morning.
I have an audition on saturday, and I'm scared.
What if I'm too tall? What if I have the wrong look? What if my voice cracks? What if I don't get the part?...so many questions!!
Ah well, such is the life of an actor.
I love my major. LOVE IT. I'm so excited to be able to teach kids what I love to do. I finally feel like I'm getting a grasp on the "Acting" thing, and I can kind of get words out that adequately describe how to accomplish this feeling. It's not perfect yet, but that's what school is for!
Anyway, I think that's all I have to say.
Oh, I'm going to get sushi today. That's keeping me from sleeping the most, I think.
I really should be more productive, but spring has sprung, and I couldn't care less!!
Oopsies.
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