time passages

winter break.

so fun.

so so fun.

i really really like not having to go to school.

why must we go to school to get a job? 

it's like...people want to have competition all their lives. why can't we just get a calling? like in church. we're born with it temporarily tattooed on our stomachs. 

is that a weird idea? 

for instance: if i was born with "Broadway Star" or "Elementary Teacher" on my stomach, no one would argue, and BOOM. there i am. living my dream. 

it would save a lot of people a lot of time. do you ever think, "what if some people never find out exactly what they want to do? what if they were born to be pediatrician, but they never think to look into the medical profession because...well...they never do.
 or sometimes i think things like, "what if michael buble never sang? what if he decided to become a...a marriage counselor?" how many people are there like that out in the world? who never realize their true potential in one area because they don't try it? isn't that crazy?? don't think about it for too much longer because your mind will go CRAZAY in your NAZAY.

wow. that was a tangent, wasn't it? 

sometimes my mind wanders.

i'm undergoing a civil war people, a civil war.

i had a great christmas!

not too many presents, but it was a night filled with family. 

i got to spend time with my cute nephew! 

that's his "funny face". 

he made the same in EVERY. SINGLE. PICTURE.

except this one. 

i love him.

anyway, biggest news EVER!!

i turned 18! i'm an adult!

whaaaaaaat?!

How did i spend the big day, you ask?

well, i woke up, went to the Corner Bakery with my mom, grandpa, sister and cousin. quite yummy! 

then, i went home, worked on a birthday cd for my aunt, and i watched a little netflix. a new obsession. 

then, i did the dishes, did some ironing, and i cleaned my room.

then, after much squabbling, my family and i went out to dinner. we went to Ruby River Steak House. i had the BEST STEAK i've ever had in my entire life. so juicy. so flavorful. mmmmmmmmmmm. and then, two of the three amigos (mailee and liza) bought me ice cream, a cake and lit 18 candles for my birthday! it was a great present! i got the CUTEST headband, and a photo book that says, "LMAO" on it. eeelllleeemmmmmaaayyyyoooohhhhhhhh. then, we watched 17 again. ZAC EFRON IS SO HOTTTTTTT. i want him. so badly. maybe my 19th birthday present?? we'll see, we'll see. 

oh, we also spent some quality time in the preteen magazine section in Smith's. my dream prom date is with Taylor Lautner, i'm Justin Bieber's type of girl, and i almost stole a Zac Efron poster. which would've been a felony. because i'm 18!!

the next day was NEW YEAR'S EVE. 

it was such a fun day! exactly what i needed. 

i went to paigiepoo's house. we watched psych, played psychiatrist, lit bottle rockets....we had such a good time! i love my best friends! it is so weird that 2011 is here. i grew up so much over 2010. i learned so much about myself. i graduated high school for heaven sakes! i started college. finished my first semester. turned 18...growing up will never end. 

on NEW YEAR'S DAY, i went to play soccer with paige, coleman, jordan, and canon. but i missed it. but i was able to go to paiges and hang out there...i played Eagle Eye on the Wii...i suck. i died at least 7 times every game, and yet, mitchell and i won the rounds. well the majority, i think. thanks mitch! then, paige and i ventured to our favorite coffee shop--starbucks. mmmmmm. i got a gift card to starbucks...thank you santa! then we went over to coleman's house to watch the Rose Bowl with coleman, jordan and canon. then ben came over. we all ate our weight in snacks, there were some major ping pong and blanket/pillow battles, waayyy too many laughs to count, some embarrassing and awkward moments (it wouldn't be hanging out with those boys if there weren't any), and it was so great to be with my best friends. after the game, we went to paige's. i received orders from jerbear and mj that i was to be home by 10:00--yay! anyway, we watched some psych (always my FAVORITE pass time) and then it was time for me to go. i went and got some cookie dough and went home. i made said cookies, and then went into my room to watch more monk. i'm obsessed. 

today, i entered a civil war. a rather painful one. i couldn't move for the first part of the morning, and then i had to skip fasting so i could eat in order to take medicine. awesome. then i took my meds and went to lay down. well, the meds didn't work. neither did the heating pad. oh well, what can you do. nothing. so i just watched monk. and slept. that basically describes my whole day. it stinks when it's the first day. 

my mom thinks i'm on my computer too much. 

maybe i am.

but in a way...it's a comfort zone for me. is that weird? whenever sad, annoying, or disheartening things happen to me, i resort to my computer. i find a new show to obsess over. it's just...it'll never change. i can always count on that show to be there. it takes me out of whatever is happening to me, and i forget. for a while. i like having that safety. is that so wrong? i try to explain it, but mj just rolls her eyes. well, she can't even turn the compter on. so. there. (oh, i also read books. i'm not completely ignorant.) it's just that...sometimes other people's lives are a lot better than mine. although, mine is pretty great. 

i shouldn't be complaining.

i've had a pretty fun break, and i'm glad that i have one more week! parrrty in the slc! or wherever my ventures take me. provo, perhaps? sandy? dare i say holladay? yeah, probs holladay. 

i heart the holidays!