Since I came back up to school after Christmas Break, I have had a weird feeling. Normally, I'm very worried about WHO i'm hanging out with WHAT I'm doing, WHERE I'm doing it; I'm not anymore. Let's be honest...most of that applies to finding guy friends/a boyfriend. I have had this weird calming feeling that I don't need to worry about anything or be focused on those things right now. Don't ask me why, because I can't tell you. That's why I said don't ask me. My friends and I have been talking about it, and they say that they feel the same way. I'm fine with just hanging out with my girls Jordan, Mel, Mary, Chandler, Allie and Lexi (if they're fine with it)...we don't exactly go looking for guys (or new people, for that matter) to hang out with. I think we're fine with what we do, and that's okay...for now.
A lot of my friends are leaving on missions...as I explained in the last post. It has been hard seeing them go, even though I know what they're doing is right. I think the thing that scares me and some of my friends the most, is that now WE have to start a different life. That may seem dramatic, but it's true! There are still some boys left, but by the end of the summer, all of them will be gone! Where will we be?? What friends will we have? We'll have to make new ones!--Old ones! The only boys that are around are those younger...yeah right...and those older! That is REALLY nerve-racking. I can happily say that I will not be looking for a husband any time soon, but I would like to go on dates, ya know? And that's really scary when the guys I'll be going out with are potentially...wifing.
Our future is a BIG, FAT ? (question mark), and I think our friends being gone signifies that we must begin on into the future...something that is REALLY scary to think about. i'm excited to see what the future holds, but I'm also quite apprehensive.
We'll see, eh?
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